This is me, 16 years ago [Part 3]

Life took a sharp turn when the author's mother was rushed to the hospital, leading to an unexpected school transfer. This change, though bittersweet, brought unexpected benefits—no transportation costs, no allowance worries, and better academic performance. However, it came at a price: she had to abandon her Science and Health major in favor of English. Her perseverance paid off, earning her the presidency of the English club. Just when she thought she had established a steady path, love threw her into turmoil, unraveling her hard-earned stability like a fragile thread.

Falling in love proved to be the beginning of her deepest struggles. Her relationship was met with harsh resistance from family and friends, leaving her isolated and cut off from the ones she trusted most. The emotional toll became unbearable, leading to a heartbreaking moment when she attempted to end her suffering. In the depths of despair, she lost everything—love, family, friendships, and the sense of self she once had. The pain of losing two pregnancies only intensified her longing for a fresh start.

Seeking to rebuild her life, she transferred to another university, but the shadows of depression followed closely behind. Battling sleepless nights and relentless nightmares, she sought help at a mental health clinic while juggling academics. At Baguio Central University, she embraced change, forging new friendships—even with her ex’s cousins. Determined to rise above her past, she threw herself into clubs, studies, and even joined the cheering squad despite doubts about her physical ability. Her unwavering resolve led her to finally earn her degree.

After becoming a teacher and passing the Licensure Examination for Teachers, she believed success was within reach, only for policy changes to crush her hopes. Amidst uncertainty, she found comfort in her best friend, Harriese, who stood by her side through nights of drinking, dancing, and singing. Romantic encounters came and went, but her family's disapproval no longer held power over her. Through volunteer work and bartending, she learned that love often carried hidden motives. This realization marked a turning point—she stopped believing in love, refusing to be trapped in the same cycle again.

As her volunteer work ended, she ventured into selling clothing, gaining financial independence for the first time. A new relationship with a seemingly bold man emerged, but his true intentions became clear—he sought personal gain rather than genuine commitment. Defying her mother’s expectations, she carved her own path, only to find herself once more facing an unplanned pregnancy and a partner unworthy of responsibility. With unwavering determination, she walked away, refusing to fall for illusions again. Despite all the hardships, one truth remained—life must go on.