Tuesday, February 15, 2022

Favorite subject And School Club

One Day Break From Work, Tara at Magsaya Muna

Pinaayos ni Papa ang Bahay, Nakakahiya Wala Man Lang Akong Naitulong

Mga Random na Remembrance

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A Short Visit to My Mom's Hometown to Attend My Uncles Wake

One Day Break From Work, Tara at Magsaya Muna

Tawag Ni ate Mula Bakun with Love

Mga Random na Remembrance

Si Aeary mula noon Hanggang Ngayon

Wednesday, February 2, 2022

Why me?

All my life, I have been working hard not only for myself but for my family. But why? I always do my best but you never gave me an easy life, I am a very weak person and you know that but still you give me things that I can't handle. I am so tired. Why not just take my life if you won't let me live a comfortable life. I worked hard for you and you know the reason why I turned my back. Even though I solemnly ask you to help me achieve the life I would like for my kids-my family, you never gave it to me. You turned your back at me first.  And now, what would you like me to do? You already killed everything in me. I am very lost. I don't know where to start what to start. I now don't even know what I really want to do. I am very frustrated. Why am I still breathing if this is the kind of life I have? I have been restless, depressed, frustrated and in a very bad shape and still you tend not to help me. I asked and asked  multiple times and yet your eyes and ears were closed. There are so many people doing illegal things, selling drugs, prostitutions, graft, corruption, murderers, robbers, and a lot more but you make their lives so comfortable, while I, I , who made an effort to work for my family and to serve you, you never made my life comfortable. You are very unfair to me. 

AS you see, I no longer want to go out and mingle with my friends, and relatives.  Why? Because I don't have anything to offer them. I am about to lose my mind. Or are you waiting for me to just end my life? Why not just take my life away.?  I am so tired. I am so down, confused and worn out. I want everything to stop. I can no longer breathe.

I am in so much pain for what you did to me. I trusted you so much thinking that you are there and you will listen to me but then I realized, you were never there for me.