During the time we stayed at his parent's house after giving birth to my eldest daughter, I have learned that they really never accepted me. They just got everything from me, my possessions, and after they got everything, his sister told, me" when are you going back home?" What the ---? I just gave birth. I thought I was going to be able to take a rest but no. I've got a lot more things to do. So I told his sister " don't ask me about that because it was your brother's idea to come and stay with you for a while."
I couldn't imagine that I was being chased out that easily. I've kept this hurt feeling for a very long time and nobody knows anything about the feeling I have. I admit I am very possessive of all my things. When I buy something for myself, I make sure to take care of it so I never want other people to touch or use it since I experienced letting some friends or relatives use my things then when they return it, I can no longer use it. They never gave importance to it since they didn't buy it- it is not theirs.
When My second daughter was born, I decided not to go and live with them again because I know I would be chased out like a dog. Besides, I have a place to stay. At those times I just gave birth, I never was able to take a rest. I had to do the house chores. I clean the house, need to do the laundry, take care of the kids, and others. I was really very distressed since I gave birth vis Caesarian Section and I was never taken care of. On the other hand, my partner was there working and after-work drinking party. After being drunk, he would come home and abuse me- sexually abuse me. Every time he comes home from work drunk no matter how sick and tired I am he always gets what he wants. He doesn't care whether I am sick or tired. When he goes out, he would say I always take care of my family. Take care, when? how?
Ever since I was young, I always have experienced a lot of storms in my life. I wanted to give up but I don't know why I just can't. There is no one to take care of me and my kids. I have to rely on my own. I emersed myself at work, yes, I worked 16 hours every day so I can forget all the troubles I have. Until now, I can still remember going to work having a blackened eye because I fought with him. I told him what I have in mind but he made me feel so small. After everything he has done, he has the habit of saying sorry, but he would do it again and again. I am just a human and I also get tired of everything. Once is enough, twice is too much. 😢😢😢
When My second daughter was born, I decided not to go and live with them again because I know I would be chased out like a dog. Besides, I have a place to stay. At those times I just gave birth, I never was able to take a rest. I had to do the house chores. I clean the house, need to do the laundry, take care of the kids, and others. I was really very distressed since I gave birth vis Caesarian Section and I was never taken care of. On the other hand, my partner was there working and after-work drinking party. After being drunk, he would come home and abuse me- sexually abuse me. Every time he comes home from work drunk no matter how sick and tired I am he always gets what he wants. He doesn't care whether I am sick or tired. When he goes out, he would say I always take care of my family. Take care, when? how?
Ever since I was young, I always have experienced a lot of storms in my life. I wanted to give up but I don't know why I just can't. There is no one to take care of me and my kids. I have to rely on my own. I emersed myself at work, yes, I worked 16 hours every day so I can forget all the troubles I have. Until now, I can still remember going to work having a blackened eye because I fought with him. I told him what I have in mind but he made me feel so small. After everything he has done, he has the habit of saying sorry, but he would do it again and again. I am just a human and I also get tired of everything. Once is enough, twice is too much. 😢😢😢
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